complexity

2008-12-17T06:58:00.000-08:00

Mesmerized by this amazing song, "Flightless Bird, American Mouth". It was featured in Twilight, at the prom scene. If ya watch twiligh before you will absolutley LOVE it. Not only that, it also speaks of hope and opportunities. Something everyone needs constant reminder of. Another song i love from this show is "Leave out all the rest" and "15 steps". The songs featured in this show totally fits the scene and fully depicts the emotions. Love this show though i know a few won't.

"Flightless Bird, American Mouth"
I was a quick wet boy, diving too deep for coins
All of your street light eyes wide on my plastic toys
Then when the cops closed the fair, I cut my long baby hair
Stole me a dog-eared map and called for you everywhere

Have I found you
Flightless bird, jealous, weeping or lost you, american mouth
Big pill looming

Now I'm a fat house cat
Nursing my sore blunt tongue
Watching the warm poison rats curl through the wide fence cracks
Pissing on magazine photos
Those fishing lures thrown in the cold
And clean blood of Christ mountain stream

Have I found you
Flightless bird, grounded, bleeding or lost you, american mouth
Big pill stuck going down

2008-10-18T08:35:00.000-07:00

Time did not make things better, but harder
Everday is a realisation
To go thru process of knowing
and reminding myself
of ur non-existence

Guess its taking a toll out of everyone
whose pretending
pretending tat they have gotten over it
But deep down they r bleeding
Making it harder to hide day by day

Shit i'mPMSing. HATE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-10-12T00:15:00.000-07:00

Didn't know it will still hurt, after all it has been a year. Damn felt pissed, PGP is freaking hot and e stupid study room is full to the max. So end up i have to study in the kitchen, BUT my neighbour choose this time to come in to cook. NOISE POLLTUION. SIanz.

Work was fun, met lot of new colleagues, Meet lots of people, funny character. The rich, old, the naggy, meanie and the handsome! Cant miss that out, after all they my motivation to work. Heard e stupid MD is going to change our job scope. He even shift our recept area to the side and the deco. Now the recept area looks like a freaking club, turn off the light and put a disco ball, freaking pub la. Miss the old set-up with this classic and elegant look that should have fit BM image. Dann sianz and they evven change the chair, from a cushion and comfy chair to this hard plastic no back support chair. In the end i just gave up and stand instead. Oh how i miss the old management. No idea how the new management will be liked. Heard that we will have ta help customer open the door. So stupid, i'm hired to answer calls and answers queries, not be a stupid doorgal. TMD.

3 more projects to go..............................................hate school.

2008-10-02T07:18:00.000-07:00

Should be studying now, but cant and now i'm wasting my precious time by repeatedly playing this songs. LOve it. Aren't we just so LUCKY?

Across the water across the deep blue ocean
Under the open sky oh my, baby I'm trying
Yeah I hear you in my dreams
I hear your whisper across the sea
I keep you with me in my heart
You make it easier when life gets hard

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Oooohhhhoohhhhohhooohhooohhooohoooh

They don't know how long it takes
Waiting for a love like this
Every time we say goodbye
I wish we had one more kiss
I wait for you I promise you, I will

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
I'm lucky we're in love every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

And so I'm sailing through the sea
To an island where we'll meet
You'll hear the music, fell the air
I put a flower in your hair
And though the breeze is through trees ???
Move so pretty you're all I see
Let the world keep spinning round
You hold me right here right now

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
I'm lucky we're in love every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

Ooohh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh
Ooooh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh

2008-09-07T08:22:00.000-07:00

Love sitting on the bus
listening to songs from my mp3 while
Admiring the scenery
Letting my mind drift away
That's life

2008-08-23T06:25:00.000-07:00

School was fine, make some new friends, nice people. Though i am still at the awkward stage, getting to know my new friends and forging the bond. Quite fun. Hostel is good, nothing to complain about other than the toilet being too dark and make it kind of scary at night, Oh and the hostel internet connectivity sucks to the core, hmm oh and that the food is simply unedible. Other than that, basically everything is fine at my place. Ya right, who am i kidding.

Btw i brought a rose plant last week, and its dying. I mean literally the whole plant, not just the flower only. Well its either already dead now or it will be next week, since i'm now at home. Well don't look at me, i water it, or rather Yanqi water it everyday, nourishing it with our TLC. Oh we even let it listen to music. So the problem definitely don't lies with us.

One thing about hostel that i hate is missing my dog. I was so looking forward to seeing her. (i know it is supposed to be refered as it instead of her, but i cant help it) It really touched me seeing her so estatic when she sees me. She would wag her tails vigorouly and keep running around like a lunatic. Btw that's her way in saying she's happy. But, guess what? In one hour of her company, i started punishing her already, by sending her to her naughty corner. She was biting a pencil, its either punish her or let her continue biting pencil whenever she sees it. Dann its hard being the devil, and my dog is only afraid of me. My whole family totally spoiled her to death. If my sis sees her like this, she is so going to scold us, for letting her being spoiled and a glutton. She was caught a few month back for eating a whole dumpling, not the small kind is the big king of dumpling; BA ZHANG. The kind that even when consume by us, will make us feel bloated and terrible, much less a dog, seven times smaller than us!!!!!!!

Well its more or less confirm that i will be working on every Fri and Sat. So four days of sch, two days of work and one day of studying for school. It's kind of sucks, but whenever i think of the money, makes me happy. Oh did i also mention that i will be going for cambodia trip this december. So excited about it. Its going to be a life changing moment, i can feel it. But that would means that i will not be celebrating Christmas here. Oh that's sad.

OK i cant think of anythings to blabber about anymore, just that HOUSE rox. Just finish watching 5 epsiodes in a row, since after work. Its simply fantastic and cativating, always keeping me at the end of my seats. Highly recommended by ME. Ok gtg, gonna try to watch another few more episodes before i sleep. Cyaz

Just blabbering

2008-08-17T00:29:00.000-07:00

Whoa, its been like so long since i've last blog. Too busy or simply too lazy, well ppl who knows me well would know that i'm using busy as an excuse to stop blogging. So in short, i'm lazy. For the past few months since i've gaduated i've been working at my travel agency. Good experience, basically. Meet all kind of customers, now i'm much better at handling difficult customer and ow to control the situation to my advantage, should anything happen.

Now i'm working part time there, as well as another company as part time receptionist in the car showroom. Well basically my job scope is to answer call in and filter it to specific departments, and walk in as well. This is indeed an easy job, extremely easy as compared to my previous job, not counting the fact that i have to pay $2oo plus for my mistakes. See the difference. Nevertheless, glad that i got through it. Anyway back to my new job at the car company, the only down side is that we will usually have to handle a lot of difficult call in customer after 5pm. Why? Because the service centre closed at 5pm, and if there would be a case of a driver's car having problem, there's nothing we can do. As all the experts are off for duty. So we poor thing have to keep apologising and ask them to call back on Monday, or sent for towing service. Below is an example.

Me: Good Afternoon BM, how can i help you?
Cus: Hi, i have a problem here, my car boot can't seems to closed. Despite many attempts.
Me: I'm sorry mdm, but the service centre is closed for the day, and they will only be open on Monday.
Cus: So what? I'm supposed to have my boot open for the weekend?
Me: Or Mdm, we sent the towing service to tow your car to our service centre? But i'm afraid, we will still only be able to get back to you on Mnday.
Cus: WHAT!!!!!!!!!!!! no cars for the weekend. You do understand that i need my car!!!! (screaming into the phone) Don't u have anyone to help provide technical advise?
Me: Hmmm no Mdm, i'm so sorry, they are off for the day, and will only be back on Monday. Or why not, i give you the towing service contact number, maybe they will be able to provide you with advise?
Cus: WHATEVER!!!!!!!
Me: Alright, so sorry for not being able to help you. Thank you. Bye.

Realised how ridiculous the situation is, do note that is a short version of the telephone convo. It actually lasted about 15mins. Anyway, its still fun. Cause you never know what kind of people you will meet. Haha love my job.

2008-03-19T01:44:00.000-07:00

We always hope that someone up there to bless us with strength, determination, responsibility and blah blah blah. But all these traits can never be blessed, they can only be learnt. What someone up there can do is only to give us a situation to overcome and hopefully we will pick up the trait.

Just like if i pray for being a more responsible person, i would never be blessed with responsibility. I would be a given a situation to prove that i am indeed responsible or learn from someone on how to be responsible. Therefore i believe now is the time, whereby i have to be responsible for my own action. Face my mistakes and learn from. I just hope my boss won' kill me tomorrow. Wish me Luck!

Just realise that i am already grown up and is old enough to make my own life-changing decision. Therefore its time i stop thinking for myself and start caring for my family. I have already contribute mt part to TPSJAB. Maybe i will go back next year to help out a bit, but its time i stop. My family needs me both financially and emotionally. I need to start saving up for my uni and stop depending on my mum, and may help contribute to the household expenses. Though i still have my down moments but who don't?

Two things to celebrate. One is that my kids have won trophies. NC1 has won the 2nd runner and AC2 has won the 1st runner. I'm so proud of them as they have worked super hard to get this award. This show the past month of hard work does not come to naught. Hope that next year they are able to train an even better team! Was touch by my best squad mate TLL, Angela and Mark for coming to support and celebrate moi last day in SJAB. Though i will miss this cca but i believe its time i stop, i have more important obligations.

The second thing is that my grade for last semester is out and i did well!!!! So happy! That's something i work hard for too! Well spent the last three day @ Sentosa Costa Sand Chalet with Pam, Naomi and Mok. Got another burnt at my back. I am super amazer at their drinking skills, shots after shots. Well found out that absolute vanilla goes well with milo and cappuccino, you should try it too. Ok now its time to focus on earning money, so the next few months i must work extra hard, after all i ask someone up there to bless me with responsibility, so the next few months is a test that only i can overcome it.

2008-03-05T06:39:00.000-08:00

Well just realise there are ppl who do talk behind my back. Well shall forgive you guys, coz guess what? I talk behind your back too! Well I don't know abt these ppl, but i know for sure that gossip is just something that i will forget after its over, and whatever i say even in a fit of anger, i don't really mean it. Therefore i hope you do too! Nobody in this world is perfect, coz we are only human and we all have our own flaws.

2008-02-20T20:51:00.000-08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TLL! HOPE YOU LIKE PHILLIP!

2007-12-22T07:32:00.000-08:00

Went jogging today, was caught in the rain halfway through my jog. Hmm spent a peaceful half an hour doing nothing but listening to the raindrop. Well it was a time well spent, sorted out my thoughts and felt better.

Well guess wat my boss said today? He said we might have a chance to go for 2D1N batam trip at this KTM resort for FREE. Haha, the key word here is MIGHT. He ask us to alias with the resort agent and request for a complimentary stay at their resort so we will be able to know about their product and able to sell better. WHOA so excited! Let's hope we get to go. I heard the place rocks and you get to eat seafood everybody, sinful sinful!!!!! Cant wait!

In a flash 4 months have passed and i have work in the company for so long. It seems that it is only yesterday that i just started working. One thing i love about my company is that i LOVE my colleague. Especially my internship mate, from foe to frenz. She really a good co-worker. You know after working at my company for so long, i really have me different kind of customer, from bitchy to wishy-washy to easygoing kind. Really all kinds, still remember one particular customer- old man. Below are our conversation.

Me: Hi can i help u?
old man: I want to stay at Langkawi sea view hotel, give me the hotel and airfare, staying for about 4 nights.
Me: Seaview the hotel will cost about 1200 bucks.
Old man: That is quite cheap, airfare?
Me: Airfare 300 bucks
Old Man : So expensive, come on don't bluff me
Me: Yes its 300 bucks.
Old Man : Nvm help me check airfare to Shenyang (4 those who dosen't knw its in China)
Me: Direct or indirect flight?
Old MAn: Direct
Me: Well only silk air has direct flight, it will cost about 900 with tax per pax
Old Man: So expensive, i don't want silk air
Me: Well you can try China carrier but its indirect flight
Old MAn: I tell you i want direct flight but i don't want silkair
Me: But only silkair has direct flight
Old Man: (Bang table) I TELL YOU I DON'T WANT SILKAIR AND I WANT DIRECT

Well in the end i got scolded for nothing, worst in the end he wanted to fly by silkair, and guess wat? Silkair no more air seats. Customer super angry and started to shout at me. Weird people.

2007-11-18T03:30:00.000-08:00

Its been so long since i last blog... well due to com break down, i am unable to blog frequently. There are lots of things that i want to say.

One is to thanks all my frenzs who put in the effort to wish me happy birthday. Had a pretty memorable birthday this year, really felt love & cherish. So proud and lucky to have such frenz. After all its the thoughts that counts. First is to my two best squardmate who gives me a surprise on the eve of my birthday by showing up at my office doorstep. Really caught off guard and touched by ur effort, and remembering all the things i've said before and put it into action. Of course with meticulous Leeling around, i should have anticpated such a big surprise, but i guess your still the pro, able to weave such a convincing story. Was close to tears, its been a long time pals aka two hottiest babes. Haha btw Leeling are u sure u dun wana turn vegetarian? haha you know wat i mean, rich guys are hard to come by.

Second is to team two mates, although you guys were a bit obvious, well still very touched by your effort. Did not want to dampen your effort by telling you guys the truth. Haha but the present hunt was truly classic. Me & Samuel were supposed to search for our present at our table in new york new york, we practically stand up on the sofa chair and flip things over to look for our present. They did a big card for us. Love it! You know when years goes by, and when lots of things have happen, its the memories that are the most precious. Nothing beats that, the sweet and happy moments. When your done and out, its these precious memories that will pull us through.

Ok well went for marathon kbox with team 2. From 10pm to 4am. We were kind of semi alive after singing. Then hike from suntec to Esplanade. Well not forgeting cam whoring on the way. We even took a photo on the road, haha and almost got caught by security guard. Quickly left the place after picture is taken. Well we started our thing to do list by the river. The list that we will do over the years. All kind of things, from fishing all the way to overseas adventure that hopefully we will be able to go next April. So looking forward!!! Not forgetting movie marathon on the christmas eve.

Well spent the important day with my mum and younger sis. Had Sakae for dinner. It was alright, but kind of not worth it. Too expensive. Felt pretty guilty to make my mum spend so much. But she said its worth it cause its my birthday. Actually i was kind of not looking forward this year birthday, coz one person less will spend it with me. I believe she would have bake a cake a cake for me if it is my birthday, and i believe the cake would look super ugly but taste alright. But i guess i don't have the chance to taste it. How i wish my birthday would have been earlier, at least i would be able to taste her cake. Ok i am getting emo again. Well sang the song the day i went to ktv. Its this particular song that we sang together before and we both sang really badly, well i still sucks badly at it. Hope that one day i will be able to master this song. Ok i should stop!

Anyway after all that have happened i decided to be a filial gal, help pay for my mum's trip to Vietnam. Fork out $500. So really and seriously broke now. Considering my pay being a measly $750 only, and plus a $32 deduction from my already very pathetic pay. Haiz money problem.

Oh anyway had a team 2 bbq last month. It started off with cycling at the beach, but end up soaking wet due to a big downpour. Haha after the rain has subside we went to return our bicycle and start on our bbq. The food were super good, especially the stingray! The chilli is to die for i tell u, haha it was Yanqi's fav. Well it was super high followed by cam whoring and lots of crapping and playing with sparkles. Super funny and memorable.

Oh Mdm Jack ask me to blog this, to make someone jealous. MUAHAHAAHA she is the most animated person i've ever seen. Well first is the OTC BBQ, that happen ages ago! It was pretty fun, and guess what? She bought for me, Meizhu, Huishi Mdm and herself a cute small waterbottle. Its super cute, and love it a lot. Symbolise our mean girls sistership, by only sharing it within the four of us and no one else. Haha hope she gets what i mean. The outing was pretty fun, went pub after that and in the end just talk rubbish. Nothing to do after that so we end up walking around the place, dun really know where i am coz i'm kind of bad with direction. So we just walk and walk and then eat again and walk. Haha iya a super long night.

Oh then following that is the OTC debrief. After the LOOOOOOONG N NAGGGGGGGY debrief we finally left for dinner. Mdm Jack brought us to this awesome Indian coffee shop that have ugly shop deco. Felt like i have just enter India when i step into the shop, almost everybody in the shop are Indian, and we kinda felt out of place. BUT despite that the food is awesome, and super good. The potato Thosai is to die for, felt so high even before i taste the food. OMG its simple sensational and its every girls' nightmare, coz it makes u want to eat even more. Well want to apologised for not being able to go for Gina's birthday bash, and to Huishi, Jack & Sam for not going. Really super tired and not feeling well. Wish Gina a happy 21st birthday. May all ur dreams comes true and get good grades for your studies.

2007-09-30T01:08:00.001-07:00

2nd post of the day, well found this awesome song. For those who are currently not over any particular gal or guy. Do listen to this song. You will get your sense of motivation. Rem your loved by people around you, esp me too!

"Over You" by Chris Daughtry

Now that it's all said and done,
I can't believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down,
Like an old abandoned house.
What you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath.
I fell too far, was in way too deep.
Guess I let you get the best of me.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

You took a hammer to these walls,
Dragged the memories down the hall,
Packed your bags and walked away.
There was nothing I could say.
And when you slammed the front door shut,
A lot of others opened up,
So did my eyes so I could see
That you never were the best for me.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
Well I'm putting my heart back together,
'Cause I got over you.
Well I got over you.
I got over you.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

POC 2007

2007-09-30T00:14:00.000-07:00

Had a long day yesterday till the next day 7am. Gosh i'm so beat.
Yesterday is the POC of OTC2007, which mark the end of otc. So happy for everybody who passed out, especially Tango and Campfire committee members. haha CONGRATS!

Was so proud of most of most of them there, after all all of them put in their time and effort to commit to this long and grueling course. Thinking back, i can't believe that i too put in so much effort. However i had fun and learn lots of new things from everyone. It was just like a big big family. Whereby everybody are best friend with each other. The whole POC pass like breeze, filled with singing, ushering guest, phototaking, and phototaking. Haha all the instructors are like on drug and being to sing and dance to songs, supporting each other! Have to wait for the pics.

Was kind of disillusioned from OTC, by its grading system. Dun really like the whole system, however there wasn't much i can do, other than getting into argument with the chairman of the course. Haha, didn't know how that happen either. Luckily, everything is solved in a harmony manner, well learn an important lesson in human management that day. Well a classic example, who passed out last year, who i think was kind of useless is *&%$#. The clue is its a he, and a "FAT" one. Still duno who? Ask me personally then.

Well back to POC, this year was pretty memorable too, especially with all instructor and trainees. The food taste awful, well but that can't b help. My tango, sang a song, haha predicted that it will be the case, its was good too! (ok that was a bias source, but who cares, whatever!)
Had a alpha finale, whoa that was really good, marks the end of the whole course.

Another committee, which is the CFC. Was touch that they remember us, even though i did not treat them quite well. Since she is the angel, i can only be the devil to balance out. Still very proud of them, for pulling off the whole thing and making the effort and all. I believe they have all learn a precious lesson since that day. I believe it will be a stepping stone for them to be a better officer. Oh they even go me a mini trophy to thank me. THANK YOU! It will forever be proudly standing beside my other trophies.

Well POC part 2, was continued at west coast Macdonald. Haha, we were busy chatting away. Or should you say gossiping away. It was fun!. Jaq and Huishi Mdm are really good chatting mates. Realli had fun talking and chatting with them, which is kind of sad, coz the course is going to end. Anyway the outing at Macdonlad is definitely, enriching, arrggh felt so sinful. But as Ben sir said: "DUN CARE". Haha After about one hour plus, proceed on to part 3.

Me and Meizhu who lived the furthest then proceed to Qingjun Hostel to stay. Haha sound wrong right, but hey its an innocent gathering. Didn't sleep the whole night. Was watching lots of videos and had fun talking and chatting after watching videos. Thats how i spend my whole day and night. So looking forward to next week chalet. Whoa!

2007-09-26T07:12:00.000-07:00

Well just made a humongous mistake at work
Customer just paid for ticket and found out that i reserve the wrong ticket, undercharge the dann ticket. My first thought was, there goes my pay, and my second though was, my pay wasn't even enough to cover, two months pay more likely. Luckily, they decided to cancel the reservation. Whoo, that was so close. Of course the customer was angry, the wife was super pissed, but luckily when i deliver the bad news, the wife wasn't there. The husband was quite cool about it. Felt so stupid and blame myself for making such a stupid mistake. Next time i must NEVER make such mistake EVER AGAIN.

Lesson learns : Always double-check when quote customer price.

Oh just remember that i film the POC video, well it was extremely awkward, but funny. Hope tango like it. Haha its quite significant. Everybody was like laughing at everyone, it was fun watching others NG and stammer. I think i had like 7 NGs.

Tomorrow is yet another day that i have to go to work. Its a brand new start for me, to learn new things and not commit the same mistakes again! So SMILE! (but why is it so hard for me to look forward to tml? Wish i am some rich kid!)

2007-09-23T04:02:00.000-07:00

Went KTV today with some frenz, well it was pretty fun and at least i sing decently even when i'm down with flu. It was quite a gathering, people coming together to sing and chat. One word, ENJOYABLE.

Despite being in the company of so many people, felt very emo today. Partially was due to my flu, felt so lethargic today, had to force some enthusiasm when singing. Was reminded of my sis when i sing this particular song, as we had once sing this song together at ktv before. How i miss her. On the way back, tons and tons of memories keep flowing back.

Sometimes i really wish i can blame someone for her death
Maybe him, just blame him, just maybe it will make it less painful
But i know she love him tremendously, in fact even more than everything else in the world
Sometime i wish i am not so damn practical
It was me who convince my family to forgive him
Forgive him bcoz my sis would not wish to see us hate each other
Sometime i dun even know whether i did the right thing
What if one day he fell in love with another gal?
Sometimes i wonder how i will react
I believe i will hate him if he do like another gal

Everyday i will reprimand myself for not showing enough concern for her
Hate myself for not being there for her
Hate myself for not knowing her better
Sometime i will even hate her for throwing her life away
For making the whole family miserable
Sometime i will simply smile thinking back the wonderful time we had together

Keep remembering my last look of her
Lifeless and cold body
All the bruise around her body
Without makeup
I could not do anything but stand there crying and crying
Nobody could stop crying
Nobody could

The next day, me and my 2nd sis read to her letters left by her students
I am damn proud of her, all her student loves her so
That they even came to give her their last respect
It was the most exhausting 3 days of my life
I am so afraid to lose anybody in my family
Just hope that i don't have to go through any of it anymore

Felt better after pouring out my pent up feelings
I am so going to treasure everybody around me
Am so going to treasure each and every single day, even if it is attachment
Sometime i wish for a large teddy bear, for me to hug and cry on
Well just want to tell people that i know I LOVE YA.

2007-09-15T04:58:00.000-07:00

10 things i WANT

Brown leather belt
Brown leather handbag, big enough to put A4 material
Charles & Keith sandals
New court shoe
New sneaker
More working attire (Skirt/ Jeans/ Nice top)
Gigantic teddy bear to hug and sleep with
red/purple/ brown nail polish (not the shiny kind)
Notebook
Driving license

2007-09-15T04:23:00.000-07:00

Finally its sat, end by first week of SIP. Well not exactly first week, since i started work only on wed. Nevertheless, one week down 20 more weeks to go. OMG thats a lot! Well better make the most of it, quite interesting though, learn abacus, so many freaking password to memorise, hope i don't under code.

Well just quarrel with my 2nd sis about a stupid issue, although we seems alright now, there is still this issue hanging over our head. Dann irritating.

Well just had this interesting conversation with my younger sis. She was asking me 5 fetish i have for guys. Haha thought for a while and here it is:

1) Cant resist guys in uniform (not inclusive of business suit or chef outfit)
2) Love guys who wear specs, just find them irresistible
3) Tall guys who tower over me, hate talking to guys looking down (no offense to short guy)
4) Smart guy, love guys who are good academically
5) Like guys who have long fingers, the pianist kind, long and slender (sounds wrong right)

Haha, it took me quite some time to think of this 5 fetishes i have for guys. Haha oh, i like guys who have nice teeth too. Its like the first thing i see when i see them. No idea why. Well this is just for fun. Well i seems to know a certain friend of mine who loves macho, manly and meaty kind of guy. muahaahaha guess who she is? Her name start with letter L.

2007-09-10T16:36:00.000-07:00

Well went to see my poly mates who are going for OSIP off. OMG 5months without them, gonna miss them like hell. There was lots of huggings and phototaking and hugging again. 1H03 is still the best, after all most of 03 people are present to send the 03 off. Below is the pic taken, all except Angie. Well have to wait for Junie to send me the pic.

Me & Liyan; well she's not flying

Chai

Ade

Mok, Siejen & Liyan

MeiYan

Whole gang

2007-09-02T23:32:00.001-07:00

Team 2 Outing

Had a late lunch at Botak Jones. It was really worth it, the food are simply delicious! Wanted to watch a movie after lunch, but too bad the movies are all fully booked. Went to mac cafe to had a drink and came up with this awesome proposal for Sentosa outing. Cool!

Oh Angeline brought us to a pub, which has KTV facilities. OMG love it! Had fun! Pics are not with me so have to wait.

In the meantime heres my Sentosa pics!

Pam & me

Pam, Naomi & me

Me & Jean

2007-08-29T05:27:00.000-07:00

Had fun yesterday! Went Sentosa with Naomi, Pam & Mok.

Although the weather sux, and it was raining the whole afternoon. It was good. Playing Frisbee, taking pic, talking, picnicking & drinking. I barely drink much, just a bit of vodka. Oh the "Song of the sea" musical fountain is so good!

Me & Pam (More pics on the way)

2007-08-27T16:59:00.000-07:00

Oh finally finished my LAST exam for poly. haha damn happy!!!
Only have two weeks of fun before being tied down by internship, and start of another sad life.
Will be working at Chinatown peoples park centre, so if you happen to be there do give me a call

Going Sentosa later, ahhh so excited!!!!! Lets hope i will be able to get a tan not burnt. Miss the avocado milkshake and subway. Ohh miss the good old time! Miss TAS!

Well was reunited with my squad mate last sat, had a short and pitiful lunch at opposite kopitiam. BUT to me it was the sweetest and nicest lunch i've ever have in a while. The food taste like delicacy. YUm! OMG cant believe that all the four guys change from not so handsome to super hot guy!!!! Woot! Maybe i am exaggerating, but do they look so cool! Thanks Mark for your ice milo, thought was going to die from heat exhaustion, it came just on time! It's really been very long since we meet. Love u guys!!!! Van, Joanna Fatmah next time try to make it k!

Gonna to have an awesome time this two weeks!
My Full Timetable this week!

Tuesday--> Picnic at Sentosa
Wednesday --> -SJAB-
Thursday --> Stay over at Ling's hostel
Friday--> Night cycling
Saturday --> Team 2 outing
Sunday--> AGI

My beloved Squad Mate, the long awaited reunion.

Happy Birthday MOkkie!!! Love ya babe!

Isn't he the cutest thing on Earth?

Its good to be young, full of laughter!

pictures

2007-08-13T08:07:00.000-07:00

These photos are my sense of motivation. They are the happy times i went through with everybody. I am loved and so are you. So treasure your friends & families around you.

My 3rd sis, isn't she pretty!

My mum's best friend

My youngest sis

My nephew, Zaccheus

My mum

My second sis, mother of the Zaccheus

Coco, isn't she the cutest thing on Earth!

My best sjab pals

Sia Anni

1H03

Meizhu, OTC pal

My best pal, Dorothy

My beloved project mates, Pam, Naomi & Jean

Team 2, SNCO

2007-08-08T08:24:00.000-07:00

I seems to keep cutting my hair at all my lowest point of my life
The day i flunk my Amath exam
The day i quarrel with my friend
The day i am overload with project
The day you leave me

Now i treasure my family above everything
I must now take the role of my sis
The one to bring laughter to the family
The one to comfort my family
The one to be there for them all the time
This time round i must make sure that i am there for everyone

Reminiscing

2007-08-08T08:09:00.000-07:00

I have always live base on the motto: Living life to the fullest without regret.
Therefore i have always hold on to the belief that all things happen for a reason, but now its hard to stick to my motto.

I regret not being your listening ears
I regret fighting and quarreling with you
I regret not spending more time with you
I regret not getting to know you even more
I regret not cooking for you
I regret not being there when you baptize
I regret not able to taste all your cooking
My biggest regret of all is not being there when you need me

Its hard to put on a brave front
It hard to get by each passing without you
Its hard not to think about you
When everything reminds me of you
The places we've been through
The things we have done
The stuff you have touch
Your presence are simply everywhere

Although we are not the closest of sisters
But you hold a special place in my heart
I really regret not telling you that
I really am...

Miss You

2007-08-03T17:52:00.000-07:00

I miss you, really do
Hope to turn back time
Tell you how important you mean to me
But its too late now

Still rem the times we help change the bed sheet
Rem the time we went Ikea together
We went for the Shiseido glamour shot
The last phone call you made
The promises you made
Are all still fresh in my mind

Now theres one less person to eat with
One less person to laugh with
One less person to play with Coco
One less person to talk to mum
One less person to talk to
One less person to go shopping with
One less number to call

I believe ur in God's arm now
Watching over us
Blessing us
Do be happy
For you will always be in my prayers

I Miss You

2007-07-29T07:14:00.000-07:00

When There Was Me And You

It's funny when you find yourself
Looking from the outside
I'm standing here but all I want
Is to be over there
Why did I let myself believe
Miracles could happen
Cause now I have to pretend
That I don't really care

I thought you were my fairytale
A dream when I'm not sleeping
A wish upon a star
Thats coming true
But everybody else could tell
That I confused my feelings with the truth
When there was me and you

I swore I knew the melody
That I heard you singing
And when you smiled
You made me feel
Like I could sing along
But then you went and changed the words
Now my heart is empty
I'm only left with used-to-be's
Once upon a song

Now I know your not a fairytale
And dreams were meant for sleeping
And wishes on a star
Just don't come true
Cause now even I tell
That I confused my feelings with the truth
Cause I liked the view
When there was me and you

I can't believe that
I could be so blind
It's like you were floating
While I was falling
And I didn't mind

Cause I liked the view
Thought you felt it too
When there was me and you

Struggling with project

2007-07-20T08:11:00.000-07:00

1 project down, 3 more projects & 3 more presentations to go!!!!

Managed to finished Biz Ent project today, quite proud of myself. Managed to do all the financial by myself. Holy crap its super hard. Not an easy task. Spent practically 7 sleepless night on it. Never am i going to be an accountant, leave it to the experts man!

Love my group members, well not all, particularly this guy who keeps pulling the disappearing act. His work sux to the core, not justified by appendix at all, other by his own words. He did not even know project submission is today. OMG what a free loader. Well i think i am being nice to him already, not confronting him in the face.

Enough about him, love my other team members. We went through thick and thin together. Stay over at Naomi's house to chiong project., with Pamela. We practically turn her study area into a mini office, using three computers in a row. Now we're sick, coz we keep munching on unhealthy snacks the whole night. Only managed to slept at 4am. It was a good decision to stay over, as we finished majority of our work. Gosh i'm so tired, and tml will be another day spend in front of the computer doing project again. How i wish that this crazy project submission period will pass soon.

Well chatted with Leslie today, hmm looks like i am pretty good at judging people. Told you so he's a nice person, just that he mix with the wrong, you know what i mean. We were once quite close, always hanging out together. Although he quit, hope that can meet up together with the rest and chat. Miss the good old days.

Oh spend Meizhu birthday with her two weeks ago, while i am still not tied down by project. OMG it was good. Went to watch transformer. The show is GOOD!!!! so worth it la. haha. After that we drink and only manage to catch 1hour of sleep. So tired, did not know how i manage to tied through the whole National Com. Well i guess, it went pretty well, considered i am unsure of my R&R. Haha learn a few things though. Oh went gossiping after that, so amazed that i still have energy after that. It was fun! haha

Gonna take FAC this year, will make it work this time round, by hook by crook. Although they might not know it, but i am very proud of them. If we have more training time, we will definitely make it, next year. I am sure and will try my best.

Well went cartel with Ling & An, OMG the food sux. Dun order their fish and chip. Its worse than the one provided at the hawker store. Super oily and EEEEE. Anyway, it was fun hanging out. Looking forward to 27th. Oh thanks Fatmah for helping me with moi accounts, u rocks!

Well just got over a minor argument with Siejen. Although was quite bothered about it. Glad we manage to settle our differences.

Btw DOROTHY PNG EN HUI, Lets meet one day to celebrate your belated birthday! Haha pai sei did not manage to stick to our Saturday night out date. After project we will meet after your church k.

Recount of past!

2007-06-15T20:11:00.000-07:00

Heres a recount of my week.

Well last week went KTV with Meizhu and Yong Sheng. Very fun! Realise that a lot of guys cant really sing just like me. Haha we sound kind of weird but heck ar, as long as we have fun can liao.

Then proceed to a one day job the next day, well the job is super idiot proof, just photo copy the whole box of documents. OMG it took me 6 1/2 hours to complete that, and that was considered fast okay!

Well went out with Dor to cityhall for window shopping. We were kind of like emotional pillar for each other, coz both of us were in bad mood these few days. But it was fun! Its been some time since we went out. Oh we were approach by this woman who ask us whether we would want to have a free makeover. Sounds like fun ha!!!! So i book an appointment with her on Thursday. I was so excited, hey i mean a chance to pamper yourself and become pretty. Its gonna b an awesome experience!!!!

It was a bad experience. i look like evil stepsister of Cinderella. YUCKS!!!!! But the only good thing is they remove my black pores. That was cool! The makeup was thick and dark, and it was too flamboyant. OMG i so wanted to remove it la. I guess those people dun understand that simplicity is beauty. I mean a the trend now is subtle makeup right! Van's makeup was worse, she even have those shiny sprinklers all over her, that was hard to wash off man! After the bad experience we straight away find the nearest toilet and remove all the gross makeup. The journey to the toilet is the most humiliating time of my life, everywhere we go people stare at us. Trust me its not the "pretty gal" stare its the "what did they do to themselves" kind of stare. OMG that was bad, anyway we feel so much better after we remove all the makeup, really refresh and more able to face the world.

Thats not where the bad experience ends. We went to this hong kong restaurant at Vivo where my frez recommend and we ordered this ramen. OMG its maggie mee la, straight from the packet kind. And they charge us for $8 plus. Dann pissed!!!! We were grumbling the whole time. At least the milo is good! Oh then went PULL and BEAR. I Love that shop, it rocks!!!!

Oh then went with my sis to new creation concert. Hmm it was okay ba, i mean considering i'm not Christian and stuff. I mean i am kind of like a free thinker so dun really believe in such stuff. But the seminar was quite motivating though. Luckily my sis din not force me to go up and receive. As i only believe in things i see and feel, so unless such thing happen dun really think i can do it ba! Overall its quite a pleasant experience!

Below are pictures in random manner:

Pic taken when me and Van remove the gross pic, We look so HAPPY!!!

YUCKS!!!! The makeup suckS!

Me & Dor at PUMA fitting room. Cool ha!

More pics taken....Vain people

Meizhu, me & Yongsheng at ktv

Me and Meizhu. WEEEE!!!!

Thats Yongsheng trying to act cool!

Me and my vanity la, ok

Flashback

2007-06-10T06:02:00.000-07:00

Well i am seriously almost OVER it le. Almost! Firstly like to apologised to ling and An for not meeting u guys on Friday, i was really in bad mood. Its not that i was reluctant 2 tell u guys, just...unable to say it. I mean its different to tell a story straight away after it happen when ur emotions are raw, then say it later when ur emotion are in controlled. Anyway its OVER! Just hope that i dun bump into him. EVER!

Oh forget to share the good news!!!! My 3rd sis is getting MARRIED!!!! It will most likely be January 2007, specific date not confirm. Well so excited for her man!!! Going with her next Tuesday to try out the gowns. Hopefully i can get a chance to try out too. Haha like real! She had also come up with a theme for her wedding, "enchanted garden", hmm sound magical isn't it? Oh well my mum will be meeting with kevon's (my sis fiance) parents this week to discuss the details!!! Wohoo!!!!

Oh did i mention i went to visit my grandma together with my 3rd sis and mum recently. It is to discuss about my sis wedding and the tradition to follow. Coz the last time my mum prepare a wedding for my 2nd sis was like 10 years ago. Wor its been so long eh. Well really talk to my grandma for the first time, and taken a liking for her. Well not that i dun like her, just that i only see my grandma once or twice every year and plus she dun even remember my name. How do you take a liking to a total stranger. Kind of understand the reason for being distance, after all she has 36 grandchildren and 4 great- grandchildren. IMAGINE!!!! Well, really hope to get to know her better and kind of forgive her for giving up my mum when she was young. haha didn't realise i was angry at my grandma for not treating my mum well all those years ago, so lets bygone be bygone ba.

Suddenly thought of my non-biological grandpa. Well let me explain, when my mum was young, my biological grandparent give up my mum, she was adopted by another set of grandparent. Well i miss my granpa who passed away 3 years ago. I wasn't exactly close to him either, therefore did not understand my loss when he died. Only after he died did i had flashback of bits and pieces of him playing with me when i was young. Well my bedok grandpa is poor, very poor actually. Although he is poor, and and was unable to flourish his granddaughters (which is me and my sis) with toys, he would go around collecting old barbie dolls and used toys for me and my sis. And even when he was diagnose with cancer, he still came and help out at my mum stall, providing her with emotional and physical support that she badly need at that point of time. Thats what i called a real doting father, despite the fact that my mum wasn't her biological daughter. 3 cheers for my grandpa!!!!

saw him

2007-06-08T08:01:00.000-07:00

Heard that his back
Heard that he's been looking for us
Heard that he had a mistress, or should i say he had a couple of mistress back then

Keep asking myself what would i do if i see him again
Would i hide, run, follow or confront him?
Well its seems that i was tested today
Saw him at century square just now
He look.....old
and being the coward that i am
i decided to hide and run
Went home after that, as i seriously had no mood to go out anymore
Suddenly felt very tired

Wanted to tell my mum badly about it
But decided against it
She had already suffer enough
No use letting her suffer again

DAMN HIM!

2007-06-06T01:49:00.000-07:00

Fish & Co. with my best mates!!!!

Went to fish & Co. with ling and An. Ordered seafood platter for 2, it was quite enormous that all 3 of us were quite full when we finish. So sick of sotong, coz ling dun eat sotong so we have to eat her share. blah feel like puking when i though of it.

Oh it was fun man! 3 of us attacking the big pan of seafood, haha no image i tell you. We were like a bunch of hungry ghosts. Do you use bunch to describe ghosts? Oh well who cares! Anyway went window shopping after that, haha it seems that An and me love to shop slowly. As we will meticulously look through every single product before we will leave the shop so unlike ling, who just scan the shop and would have to wait for us two obsessed shopper. Anyway we end our day quite early, coz both of them have to work the next day.

Oh almost forget to mention, went shopper with Siejen in the afternoon. Oh my god, she is a different person when she goes shopping i tell you. She would be very impatient and forthright in her manners and use of words. BUT i like to go out with her nonetheless, coz she would give me her most honest comments and not like some of my friends who will say the outfit is nice even when its not. Thats true friends as they tell you the TRUTH!!!! thank you for accompanying me jilly!

2007-06-06T01:34:00.000-07:00

I need a haircut
I need a new wardrobe
I want to go overseas
I want to go clubbing (To dance not to drink)
I need a new bag
I want a new spectacles

BUT I can't do it without MONEY!!!

Zi de Ai

2007-06-02T16:30:00.001-07:00

Finally i've found the song that i have been looking for! Love the rhythm and lyrics! Must listern

camp

2007-05-29T20:04:00.001-07:00

Camp was enjoyable, interesting and a learning experience. Overall was a great camp and love it! Had the shortest debrief session in my st. john history. Haha but its short and to the point. Although theres criticism but we have to take it in stride. All trainers were bonded and so different from zone 8 camp. Love it! Wanted to take more pic, but short of time, so heres all i have.

Me and Meizhu

haha we are trying to open our eyes wider.

Guess whose that? Don't think too much, its just me and meizhu

Breakfast in our "Ops" Room

After OTC camp

2007-05-28T16:47:00.000-07:00

Oh I'm Back!!!!
It was fun!!! really memorable and educational!!!
BUT
Now theres suddenly lots of things to settle
Was overwhelm with emotions
& brought back to my past yesterday

Although the wound will heal with time
The scars will always throb in pain
Only solution is to stop thinking about it

Move On

Girlfriend (Italian version)

2007-05-28T01:54:00.001-07:00

This song rocks!!!!

song

2007-05-19T20:57:00.001-07:00

Love this song to bits

bits and pieces

2007-05-19T20:54:00.002-07:00

Was extremely busy these last few weeks! Lots of things to do, well went out with Dorothy yesterday! WEEEEEE it was fun, coz we have not met each other for like months. Of coz we visit our usual hangout, airport! Share lots of story, and i hope that my advice would not affect your decision, after all i am an amateur in this area.

Roti and me

Taken at MRT when i am so bored while waiting for Roti. I waited for 2 hours!!!

Oh sorry for late update, was celebrating Angela's birthday at KFC. It was a very childish gathering!!!! OMG i cant believe i did that!!!!

Bdae gal with our part deco at KFC.

Outside KFC

There were even balloons!!!!

Even have birthday decoration wor!

2007-05-19T20:54:00.000-07:00

weird dream

2007-04-19T20:50:00.000-07:00

Had this super weird dream, SUPER WEIRD!!!!!
Ahhhh cant gt it off my head!!!!!!!!!

Window Shopping

2007-04-16T21:59:00.000-07:00

Went out with Angela yesterday. Woohoo was fun. Went to pastamania for dinner and after that is 5 hours straight of chatting and catching up on old times. Was trying to wiggle out some hints for her birthday presents. Hmm seems that i have some ideas in my mind le. Went bata and both of us fall in love their designs of their covered shoe that we could not resist but took some pics.

This is the sailor design, love both colours

I absolutely like the black pokka dot shoe, look so cute huh!
The strawberry design is so kawaii ar. Pink is nice too wor, An's fav colour.
These two design are both Angela and mine fav! An like pink while i like blue.
Love both design, one being my fav design, the other being An's another fav design.

Heres the pic we took at TM toilet at around 11plus. Ok i admit i wear very sloppily but after all TM is just 7 mins walk away. so iya anything la.

I admit that it was a bit disappointing that someone could not join though. No ideas what happen this time round. is it because i could not join you for the previous date? No idea but it was not done intentionally though, just that had other matters to settle. This has not been the first time though that such cold war happen, well a bit tired of it. Why am i always the target? And why am i the one who always have to apologies?

POC

2007-04-16T02:10:00.000-07:00

OMG Super pissed with the polyclinic doctor!!!!! He sucks like hell.
ON friday during POC, my ankle was so swollen that i was limping. It was a sight i tell you, limping while wearing court shoe and in Uniform.
Had no choice but to see doctor after POC.
Whoa the doctor super handsome, i was so stunned when i open the doctor to his room. My first thought was "CUTE". Haha
Anyway he told me that as there was a lump on my ankle, he is worried that it might be a minor fracture and suggested i go see doctor.
So i went to polyclinic the next day, hoping to see doctor then have an Xray. But after waiting for 3 BLOODY HOURS, when i finally had a glimpse of the doctor, (hes not handsome i tell you! unless you have a fetish a forty yrs old man with balding head) he told me that must have pull a tendon and since i have already seen a doctor the day before, "What do you think i can do for you?" Do note that he say this sentence in a irritated manner. So pissed!!!!!!!!!!!! Like i know! hey the reason why i am coming here is to ask you what you can do for me mister not the other way! Thats the job of a doctor OK.

Oh am so happy to see the std 4 pass out. Third batch so far. Although i am not their instructor nor their direct superior, but really proud of all of them. Now their main focus is to focus on their o levels. Good luck guys!

Team 2 second outing

2007-04-11T19:28:00.000-07:00

Oh enjoy myself tremendously! Its been so long! yeaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!
Had team 2 outing for the second time coz Wei Chee is going NS wor! Went Marina Bay to have steamboat, whoa managed to bargain successfully, paid $10 instead of $11 each. Whoa yes! A good start sia!

Dinner was fun, everybody eating, chatting, laughing. Too bad did not managed to YAM SENG. Did i spell it correctly? oh well. Its been so long i laugh this much, so thanks guys! Hmm after dinner is KTV session wor. Super fun sia! Everybody was so high!!!!!!!!! LOve it, lets do it again k!

Today is a super busy day! Lots of errands to do! Going to meet ling today!

Abandon

2007-04-08T08:33:00.000-07:00

A strike of inspiration after listening to this super nice song in Youtube. So here it goes, do pardon if it not polished and not well written. Help me rate guys thanks! Thats the use of the tagboard!

Abandon

I thought we could always be friends
I thought you do care for me, even a little
I thought you say friends should always be there for each other
I even hold on to the thought that i am of some importance to you
But... it seems i'm wrong

After all, there are always a distinct difference between friends & lovers
You would always abandon me for her
Even when i need you the most...

Where are you then?
By her side of course
Stupid of me....
It seems i was push aside.... Once.... Again....

ice skating & tango outing

2007-04-07T01:14:00.000-07:00

Well its been a while! Well yesterday had been a fun & painful day! Emotionally fun and physically painful. Haha must be wondering what the heck i am writing about ya?

Well before i go into details, i wana say sorry to Ling and Angela. Wasn't able to spend the day with u guys. Next time k, pai sei coz other already book me first. Love ya guys!
Oh and Doroti, must meet up one day k, Sunday i cant though.

Well i ice skate for one hour plus, cant say it was fun exactly. Was yelling for my mum the moment i step into the skating ground! Really scary, seriously. Lost count of the number of time i fell, maybe 18? haha scary sia, have bruises all around my knee and a swollen ankle to prove it wor. Anyway the whole experience was memorable though!

Later, went for tango outing. It was fun! hope Andy and Samo enjoy themselves and like their present though! We chat and crap during the outing, went for Swensen for dinner. Although some of the people did not turn up, we still had fun! Its been a long time since i have seen Zoeraine, arrrr miss her. So cute seh!

Looking forward towards Tango next outing! yeah!

Content

2007-03-26T02:15:00.000-07:00

ok I should be content and stop mulling! An acknowledgment is something, i should be happy, after all this is the most i can get right!!!!

Heard this really nice emo song, but absolutely love it!!!! By Lee Jun Ki

Zodiac Sign

2007-03-09T06:04:00.001-08:00

Just finish this tickle test on "Which type of zodiac sign is my best match". Guess what? It seems that Scorpio are my best match! Woho! thats my zodiac sign wor.

It seems that i am attracted to people who possess confidence, who are on the wild side, have intense eyes and supreme determination. Wahahaha TRUE. Seems that the result is quite accurate. Now lets see, which guy i know are scorpion???? Any recommendation anybody?

Mixed Feeling

2007-03-06T05:17:00.000-08:00

It was this feeling again, this helpless feeling, unable to help and do anything. Felt so useless and yet unable to disclose the truth yet, once again that someone will get hurt. Call me a coward but current;y, this is the best plan. Damn felt like I'm back to square one. Fate is really playing a PRANK on me, bet he is laughing at the joke he create ONCE AGAIN!

Anyway enough of that, just found out someone i respect a lot is getting married or should i say ROM soon! Really happy for them, i find them SUPER COMPATIBLE! Through that person i really learn a lot from him, his determination to excel in his studies, continuously pushing himself! Hope that i have half of his determination. Jia You wor!

My thouhgts

2007-03-05T20:05:00.000-08:00

Since the start of 2007, there has been a lots of obstacles that i have been through. Bringing me through numerous low periods in my life. Regardless of whether its for school work, Sjab or family. First of all i would wana thanks all my friends and sisters who have continuously support me and listen to all my grumblings. Really appreciate it pals.

Well lets bygone be bygone, i would not like to harp on it anymore. Anyway would like to thanks those who inflicted the ugly scars on me in the first place; be it physically or mentally. At least i learn a valuable lesson and would sure know how to protect my self in future.

Well for the past few days i enjoyed myself tremendously. Especially yesterday with Van. It was fun. First we met to suntan and swim in the morning. Anyway my shoulder is a bit burnt, must be the suntan lotion. Next we had lunch and i had the most refreshing ice lemon tea in my life. It was really good, every sip is ecstasy! After lunch we made an impromptu decision to go sing ktv. Super high ar i tell you. Both of us seems to be on drugs, sometime super high sometime super emo. Haha guess what? We were still not satisfied after 5 hours and were unable to finish all the songs that we have selected. After which had dinner at Van house and thank you Van for helping me do my blog. Love the skin and tag board.

Oh before i forget, i would like to congratulate all my friends who did well for their exam. Good job guys! Damn no Super proud of your guys! Oh and hope that you guys enjoy your date, regardless is going out with friends, prospect boyfriends or boyfriends. You know what i mean.

2007-01-03T00:41:00.000-08:00

Happy New Year! 2007 a whole new beginning. For me it began with a rocky start, which left me with no mood to celebrate this year new year. Sorry for not continuing the tradition guys. Next year we must do it k! Anyway, its been a while since i last blog, been very busy with SNCO, decorating my house, christmas and FAC.

First let me start with SNCO. It was a 4 days 3 nights thing. This time round i choose a ration position, to learn more about the support side and also to get to know more about ow other corps people work. Another reason reason is becasue this is a more relxed role as compared to other department, as i am afraid i am unable to make it for the camp. I have to say it was a uniqe expereince , without all the members in ration, we wouldn't have done such a good job! Hui Mei and Fairus, thanks for our guidance, you really are a great help! To Terence, Farhah, Mingli, Lucy and Cassandra, you guys are great! good teamwork. Lastly thank you Leeling and the training dept for helping out, appreciate it. For those who gave me your sincere feedbacks to help improve the ration depatment in the camp. THANK YOU!

I think i kind of enjoyed myself during the camp as it allow me to keep in touch with my team 2 mates previously from my own SNCO. They are Samuel, Wei Chee, Yanqi, Sze Ling, Shu Juan, Wan Ling and Pia Tat (advisor). Oh which brings me to our outing on 26 DEC. It starts off with Wei Chee, Smauel and Yanqi scaring us that they are unable to make it for the outing. I admit kind of dampen our mood then, and they surprise us with their appearnace! Went to eat at Carls Junior. All of us were laughing and ossiping away, super fun. Then we proceed to cinema theatre to catch a movie, Death Note 2. As, we are early we exchange our christmas gift. I got a water bottle, haha love it. After the movie, we rush to the mrt just in time to catch the second last train home. In the train, we keep taking photos. Super FUn! Lets go night biking next time k!

Oh for christmas, went to Leeling's aunt party. It rocks! Love the food. Leeling, Angela and me took lots of photo with the christmas tree. haha. After that i rush down to my sis party and its mahjong and eating session again. I have a bad feeling that i put on weight liao. Damn.

For FAC, it was three days intensive training. Face tremendous amount of problem when planning for this event, which affect my mood terribly. But i find that all my effort are worth it. By looking at the kids face of determintion and motivation to learn more. They even ask me for extra traning time. I was so touched and motivated when i see their determination. It spur me on and i will try all my best to train them! Lastly i must thanks all trainers for coming down to help out during the holidays. Thanks! Really appreciate.

Then went to IKEA and courts to buy bed, hangar, cupboard , tv table and light for my room. Its past time to tidy up my room. It is in shambles without proper storage and beds for all three of us to sleep. It was a fun experience with Melissa and Siau Ling. Thank you babes for helping me carry all those heavy stuff. BTW i managed to install all the cupboards and tv table. Damn proud of myself! hohoho!

Thats about sum up how i spend my holidays. Super boring i guess. Anyway wish everyone the best of luck for this new year. May all your wishes come true and all of you managed to snag a guy or girl! For those who already have one, keep them well by your side! Also get along well with your family!

moi birthday cake

2006-12-12T17:34:00.000-08:00

Just found this pic, its my birthday cake! Kawaii ! Thanks jia! (5th sis)

My Poly Frenz

2006-12-01T06:15:00.000-08:00

Some pics i took with my poly frenz at TAS! Look closely at everyone of us, all look so tired with ugly eyebags! All of us has not been sleeping well, Why? Project la!

Nadz, Pang, Siejen and Mi Mi and Nadz

2MORE DAYS!!!!! ENDURE!!!!

busy as a bee

2006-11-24T05:15:00.001-08:00

Three projects and two presentation due in two weeks, and one of the project is a combined PBL of two subjects. Damn...life really sux.

Anyway just two weeks, after that mid-sem test then i am free for 2 weeks!!!! Yeah yeah yeah! Was looking forward to Christmas, coz this time round my whole family will be spending christmas together for the 1st time! I think shall be spending the afternoon of christmas at ling's aunt house, if she invite us again! Christmas eve should be spending with tango if i am not wrong or is it my poly frenz? My brain is kind of in a mess now, too much stress! Haha!

Well i wana go KL backpacking, during holidays! I so wana go, shall be going with my frenz soon. Plan our itinery and getting round on our own, so cool! Finally wat i learn in HTM can be of used!

Anyway gotta go, shall continue on my environmentally friendly practices for hotel and its benefits....and many more..........................

busy as a bee

2006-11-24T05:15:00.000-08:00

Pissed

2006-11-18T22:48:00.000-08:00

Some people just lack the EQ. Is it so hard to say thank you and give a smile? When you tell them something, he just looked away, with neither a smile nor an acknowledgment of your existence. You just feel so invisible and useless! I hate this kind of people, detest, and dislike them!

I also dislike people who judge and condemn others! Why cant they be compassionate. Oh please! Everyone make mistakes! Try to guide and correct those who make a mistake, thats the role of a friend, senior and mentor! Instead these people just condemn and look at you as if you are an idiot! Damn

aaahhh

2006-11-18T09:37:00.000-08:00

Jz sleep for 6hours after coming back from SNCO course briefing day. Damn tired, mayb coz of my stupid flu, my throat are now so sore!

Firstly, i muz thanks all my friends who remembered my birthday and wishes me! Really touched! thank you! Didn't really celebrate much, but to me it is still a special day, went to sch as usual, then we dine at subway. OUr topic of course is guys, Oh shit this is juz so typical me. Sch end early on my birthday, went to vivo and shop with joyner and claire. It was fun, although i was a bit lethagic, coz i was doing my project till 2 plus in the morning. Then back home, its project again, till 4 plus this time. Oh did i forget to say my younger sis bought 3 small cakes? It was so cute! then she and my mum celebrate for me! POC and tango rox! Thanks CK, Jenny and samo for remebering! Oh thanks 2nd sis too, she called and her son, who is my nephew sang me a birthday song. Although it dosen't sound like one, but i love it!

Oh went to sj today, coz now its after midnight so its yesterday! Found out that i was the CDO, god i hate that so much! Anyway, i find that i kind of screw up! everything was so blurry, and pass by in a daze. Was feeling very bad the whole day, almost vomitted in the morning! Anyway, i muz thanks my nco, very cute and nice gal. Oh the highlight of the day was the support meeting, everybody was so cute! esp mdm xu and mdm chui yee! They are so kawaii ne.

Omg was so jealous that mdm xu they all are going ktv! wana go too......Ling, angela, joanna i'm waiting for u ladies. anyway, i can only do weekend! Oh shit when u guys are free, i am not! I am now pile up with projects and test! Damn!

LAstly, shouldn't ppl try to blend in with others? But why are others not doing it? Juz dun understand! In this way, at least the camp wun be so awkward like last yr!

Fetish

2006-11-11T17:03:00.000-08:00

Just realise i have a fetish for tall, lean guys who wear specs. Haha just find them irresitible. Whoa! Haha!

Its just that whenever a guy that caught my attention, he is always seems to be tall, lean and wearing spec. Found out that my two sisters also prefer tall and lean guys, and their husband are the evidence. Haha muz be a family trait!

Oh juz completed 7 hours of lectures. Didn't really know how i pull it off. Hope that its beneficial for the FAC team.

3more days to go.....Everybody seems to be busy. So wun be expecting much, but at least Shaf is companying me to watch Step up! Haha was looking forward to viewing this movie. After that is back to project again, coz 16Nov is my 2 projects due date. damn!

convo with mum

2006-10-28T07:25:00.000-07:00

Just had an interesting conversation with my mum, and this is what it says:

Me: Which is the most suitable age to date a guy?

Mum: 25 years old.

Me: WHAT!!! Thats so old, thats the age i wana have my first child much less first BOYFRIEND? Thats super old! R u mad? Mum U got married at 18, and u want me to only start dating at 25?

Mum: By the time u finish university u should be around 22years old, give you another 2-3 years to have a stable job, thats when its best to have a boyfriend! u wun get DISTRACTED!

OMG! I am seriously overwhelmed by what my mum said! come to think about it, shes also right to a certain extent. But i still stand by my views. If i have a child by 25, so when i am 45 years old, he or she will be 20 years old liao, and i'll have a better and easier life then. Right?

Sone by Lee Soo Young

2006-10-20T20:22:00.000-07:00

Came across this fabulous MV, super touching and and the songs is superb. Do enjoy, oh and the main actor is gorgeous! The story is a bit sad though!

Unrequited Love

2006-10-18T09:19:00.000-07:00

UNREQUITED LOVE
It was an unrequited love from the start...
Saw him during a school competition and it was love at first sight. He had this special aura around him that makes him the limelight in my life, everybody just seems to dull in comparison. His smile is so charming and warm that i find myself silly staring back at him. i simply just couldn't take my eyes off him. However never did i expect that it was going be the start of an agonizing journey that make me feel heartbroken for the first and last time...

Since then, I was extremely aware of his every movement and behaviour, sensitive to his mood, when his happy i am too, when his sad so am I. Apparently so is he, but to another girl. I guess thats what people call "love blindness"; you are blind to everybody's feeling except the special one. Your whole body senses seems to be only functionally actively for him, willingly sacrificing yourself secretly just to meet his every needs.

Since he don't have his eyes on me, i only had to follow behind him secretly. Watching his back, and hoping he would turn back and glance back and look at me. But he never did, not even once...

Didn't he know my feelings for me? Or do he choose to feign ignorant? Maybe its better if we continue this way, at least we get to be friends, and i can get to see him from here.

One-sided love was both blissful and painful. Blissful because i can be near him, thats all i need. His presence can make my life suddenly seems so colourful; the light of my life. Everytime i am near him, i can feel my heart beat painfully against my chest, so loud and furiously that its been a miracle that he can't hear it at all. Painful because he only has eyes for another girl, gazing only at her.

Never have i felt like this before, such a surge of emotions that is is exremely scary. So scary that i felt like giving up. But whenever i felt like giving up, his warm smile would appear in my mind, and i'm lost in his charm again and again and again...

This is a story i make up, strike by a moment of inspiration! hope it dun sound weird! Do give me ur feedback, thanks!

My Girl

2006-10-16T10:30:00.000-07:00

Finally after one month i have finally finish watching this korean drama "My Girl", damn nice, making me go gaga when i think about it! It is a typical four sided love story but make interesting with a series of funny and unexpected twist of story! Making you just want to carry on watching till the end, but was not made possible due to my work! It was more like a Cinderella story, whereby two handsome, tall and most important RICH guy, fall in love with a girl who is poor and also a swindler, blind to her weakness and only see her as who she is internally. Do such guy really achieve?

So unrealisitic, dramatic and so impactical! But isn't that every ladies' dreams? Tall, dark, handsome, caring and rich, thats the whole package! OK i admit it, the real reason why i can't help loving this show is the two guys in the show are just so damn gorgeous! Ladies you will regret it if you miss this show! So what are you waiting for?

Family photo session

2006-10-15T22:30:00.000-07:00

I was supposed to attend cpbs meeting this sat morning, and turn out to be quite fruitful, was make the R&R officer, haha sound cool ar, but in actual fact is to do research and do the lecture notes! Meet Ben, for the first time, and he was a really nice guy!

Then later i was supposed to meet my whole family together to take family photo at this Werkz photo studio. It was something that i was so looking forward to, coz its not everyday that my whole family gather together, maybe like 3 times a year? Thats why i always treasure this rare occasion a lot!

hOWEVER, IT TURN OUT TO BE QUITE A DISASTER! I was inform 45mins before the allocated time that the address for the photo studio has shifted from tanjong pagar to little india! For me its was alright coz i was already at Lavender then, so i will be able to reach the studio on time. But as my elder sis did not have a handphone, so my fifth sister had to wait for her at tanjong pagar then rush to little india from there. We were all royally pissed by then!

First the royal studio did not inform us about the change of address, and second when my third sis complain to them about this incident he scold her back! And they still have the cheek to put "good quality" service at the front of their photo studio! Oh he did so call "try" to make ammendment, he said if we upgrade our size of the photo, which will cause $200 more, he will give us $20 discount and compensate for the cab fare! To me it sound more like another marketing gimmick!

lost

2006-09-21T09:20:00.000-07:00

Felt so lost, should be feeling exhilarating, but two many bad news in one day. First was found out that i was being called a bastard, pretty pissed initailly. Especially when he get the gender mix up! What the hell! In the end, juz cool down when i imagine myself in his shoe. Kind of figure out why he got that grade and sympathize him.-->Punctuality! Anyway, i am innocent! Juz wana put this matter behind us! Forget and forgive! But will we ever?

Had a great day, found out that i make it! Then realise others didn't, and realise some who should share the joy with me in the first place, but wasn't even given the chance! Kind of dampen my whole spirit! Double damn!

Had brunch with my 3 best pal at our fav restaurant, or should u say joanna fav resturant, Swensen. It was fun, gossiping about everyone on Earth, even our future boyfriend was nor spared>whoever those poor guys are! I think it will be another few months b4 we will b able to meet again! So long guys!

Then POC committee came ove to my hse to do door gift, i am so sick of it! repeatedly doing the same things again and again for 7hours straight! Later, had a mini steamboat maggi mee dinner, and our desert is MAHJONG! It was fun, take my mind off matters for a while!

Horospcope says that i should get a clear vision of myself after today, i shall declare it untrue! Not only am i now more lost, i am also more confused! No longer knowing what is things that i deserve, what is not? I miss everyone!
especially dorothy, van and fatmah. Have not seen them in ages! People just move on i guess>>>>>

OTC

2006-09-19T05:52:00.000-07:00

While i was listerning to the song "Graduation", by Vitamin C. A lot of memories about OTC just came rushing , and i decied to pen down what i felt at this specific moment and thoughts. I am not a person who tell people what i feel face to face, makes me uncomfortable, maybe its just my past. So

After:

6 Course Days
1 Camp briefing
1 National Competition
1 AGI Rehaershal
1 AGI
1 Badger Com (i didn't attend)
3 Days Two Night camp

Its coming to an end soon.....
Initially i didn't want to attend OTC at all, and almost withdraw from this course, coz at that point of time i decided to quit. However due to some compliaction, i have no choice but to go.

First day of oc course day sux big time, coz i hate the feeling of being put together with a bunch of strangers, it wasn't, hmmm how should i say? Comfortable? Anyway, slowly through the course days, the other projects i get to know some of them better. But i still maintain some distance, i just don't really make friends easily k. Thats just me.

Then came the time for camp, it was awesome, the time at the blue whale? is that what it was called? The expediture, the triage, the laughters, ups and downs durig the camp was shared among all of us. Though we are not as closed, at least we have a common memories! So tango rulz!

So everyone, including MDM GINA you guys rulz!!!! Nobody is a failure! Even if some of us did not make it to be an officer, at least we last out til the END!!!!
i love Mdm cheekiness, Sir lame jokes, Zoe stress look, Jenny and Samo cheers and songs, Wei xuan coolness and brain, Sk ultimate jokes, wen xuan gentlemanly, YL cheekiness and his fondness for Shannel, Nora determination, Jia Hong the nice guy, Andy the carpenter, Shannel the teacher, Pongsy coolness and YAnni shirt rox!!!! So no matter where we go infuture, just rem we are always from tango. Do keep in contact!!!! MISSya!

Just Pondering

2006-08-21T22:14:00.000-07:00

Forgive but never Forget? Ever remember people hurting you? You seems to forgive him or her but never seems to forget it. Whenever he or her hurt you again, old memories will surface.... It make me realise i have once hurt my best friend, without realsing it. How childish we used to be. Now when i look back, my secondary school years are my best moments. How time flies....

Been studying for past few days, depressed by the memory overload. Suddenly images of last christmas eve flashback... What if things change, the ugly confrontation did not take place? or the guys inform us before hand on their motives? Maybe, things would have been different? Maybe? Maybe not?

Anyway, we should look at the future and not brood over the past! Should we? Easier said then done though....

Enough of sad thoughts, for my short term goal: Study hard for exam!!!!

tuition

2006-08-02T08:01:00.000-07:00

Just recruit another tuition job, another addition burdun cum commitment to my already very busy life. Shopping sound so alien now, that i could not even remember how it feels like to shop one whole day, and buy lots of clothes!

Anyway, enough of my grumbling. Lets talk about my this new tuition job. She is a primary three girl, and the subject i am teaching her is math. OMG thats my worst subject. But dun worry, i have the calibre to teach her, as i am currently tutoring a primary 5 boy maths and sicence. Anyway, this girl is a super duper mischevious/talkative/cute/intelligent kid!!!!! That i just can't help but adore her, it seems the feeling is mutual! What a great start to this new tuition job!

Recount of the past few months

2006-07-31T23:25:00.000-07:00

Its been ages since i blog, been too busy juggling my st. John, tuition and school work, that i dun even have time for my own personal life. It was really frustrating and suffocating! I know it was the issue about time management, but easier said then done, a lot of time i had to stay up very late to finish my work, and also skip zillions of lectures! Oops!

This time round i think i slack a lot for my school work, i hope i don't fail any of my subject, as i place a lot of importance in it, i dun wana disappoint my mum again. She had too many already! I want her to view me as someone who is responsible in her work, as she have to work very hard to support us.

I shall start with the combined Jnco camp this june. It was one hell of an experience. I fell down badly at Pulau Ubin, instead of being a mobile medic, i was the casualty. It was a very bad exerience, i can hardly walk after the bad fall. One thing i am very proud of myself, is i did not cry, and i can still firmly tell my cadets that my injury is nothing. After the camp, i really feel attached to the other school trainers and trainee, and i am proud of every single person there! As it was my first time being a platoon commander, there was a few time i was at lost of what to do. it was also quite hard to manage so many advisors at one shot! Anyway, overall after my self evaluation, i believe i learn a lot of things from this camp. In addition, i know how each corps works, it was a fruitful journey!

Next, is the OTC, didn't really wana go. As i realised that i am overload with works!!!!!!! Anyway, i had to go due to some restriction. After finishing six course days, i did not regret it! Not only did i make a lot of friends from other zones, but it was a interesting experiences, although ETREMELY BORING during some lectures. Initially, i kind of look down on my Mdm, just feel that i am not used to her way of doing things, but over time, i came to respect her. Because of her unique way of doing things, not only is Tango one of the closest team in otc, but to me is the best and most united! I hope that i can pass out from this course, so as to not dissapoint everybody!!!

Lastly is the 20th anniversary ceremony which i was in charge, i was very grateful for Gerald and Van coming down to help me out. It was certainly an eventful day. If you were to ask me whether this event is successful, i would say it is very successful! Although there was lots of hiccups, but nevermind coz, everyone doing this event are all newbies, including me. And we only had guidance from Mdm Sim, who i am grateful to, coz she is indeed very helpful! Thanks mdm Sim!!! One of our main objectives is to allow everyone a chance to bond all cadets as well as people from other corps! I want to thanks :

Siauling
Jolie
Foong Ming
Jia Zheng
Melissa
marissa
Xiu Hui

My precious committee member for 20th anniversay, you guys did your best! And i want to apologised about you guys not getting what you should! I am really sorry! Btw, one thing i know is that leeling did enjoy herself tremendously! Get to see pia Leong, Hua Wei and BEn.

Oh, then there is Jnco BBQ, haha its was how should you say? a very unique experience! There was this "raping" game, oh poor thing, all the junior gals. We managed to pull siauling only. Oh after that we play with charcoal. it was so messy, my shirt turn from white to black. Luckily i managed to wash it away!!!! Make me want to hold our own BBQ.

I am quite satisdied with this sem project group mates, although i still prefer my previous one, maybe because i know them better. Although we start off rocky, it turn out well, at least we did not ostracized anyone like wat other group did! I think overall, good teamwork was shown. We were at the norming stage, not the performing, which is a pity!

Anyway, IH03 will be having chalet again!!!! I am so looking forward to it!!! Haha everyone get together and bitch and drink!!! Thats call life!!! I so love the beer that Terence brought the last time!!! But pls no more water bomb again!!! I miss MOOMOO Club!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Btw my fellow squard ladies, when are you free for outing? My frenz working at tamp cartel, so got discounts!!!!!! Lets go and eat and gossip!!!! Miss You guys a lot!!!!

Lastly, roti lets go out during holiday, still own you a belated present!

Thats a brief overview of my life for the past 3 months!!

2006-05-01T00:00:00.000-07:00

Lets see, i have not updated my blog for weeks.......
Due to hectic life and my laziness, i have forgotten about it.....
I have just started sch at Tourism accademy of Sentosa (TAS), which is my sch.
It sounds cool, studying at a vacation area, full of flora and fauna, but trust me it was SHIT!!!!
Initially, it was quite fun, you know studying at such a extraordinary place, for god sake, my school is a preservation building full if HISTORY, and you can even see monkey and peacock walking around!!!!!

But the journey was HELL. Just for a few hours of lesson, i have to go ALL the way to sentosa, which dosen't really take long, lets see around 1 and a half hr? OMG, before i even reach Sentosa, i am already tired. HAiz i just hope i get used to it!!!!!!

Anyway, i meet a few frenz, they were nice, i am so happy i get to know them. I think my class comprise of 31 pupils, and which 10 of them are guys!!!! Thats a record man!!!!!
GTG, shall update my blog again!

pulau ubin

2006-04-12T08:11:00.000-07:00

Hmmm...went pulau Ubin with Grace, Mok n jilly on Monday. It was both tiring n satisfying. We managed to cover about 2/5 of pulau ubin.

Anyway moo was the most unlucky one, as a beginner cyclist, she was meet with uncountable no. of times of accident throughout the whole trip. Haha, most funny one is when she collide into the bush. Although she had meet with lots of mishap, she was not hurt, not literally, just brought back home a souvenior from ubin; blue black on her knee.

It was a great advemture guys, lets try again next month k.

Lets see, went swimming with Valerie again today, got burnt again. We stayed in the pool n chat for 2 and a half hour. OMG can you imagine, i m so lucky that i'm not black. haha. But it was fun nevertheless, shall do it again next time!!!!

swimming

2006-04-04T22:23:00.000-07:00

Just went swimming with my new colleague, Valerie at Tampines Swimming Complex. It was fun, both of us were playing with the slides like two kids. The whole place was so COOL!!!! There is even place for you to sun tan. I absolutely LOVES IT..

boring life

2006-04-02T08:18:00.000-07:00

Just came back from work. Damn tired. First, i had to rush to my tuition at Hougang, then rush back to century square n work for 7hrs straight. I am damn proud of myself sia.

This job is pathetic, pay only $4 per hr. OMG, i cant believe it!!!! But i took it coz its near my hse, within working distance, free flow of food. ahaha, n my waistline is getting THICKER!!!!!!!

So guys, anybody interested in going cycling nxt nxt week? Jean, ade, jilly n Moo, Pick a date for nxt nxt week n tell me k... We will go pulau Ubin n cycle!!!!!! Wheeeeee its going to b fun!

CHALET? TUITION AND NEW JOB

2006-03-30T18:04:00.000-08:00

sORRY, had not been updating my blog, coz the my internet connection has been cut off.

Lets see where i left off, ohh 1Ho3 chalet. Overall it was quite ok, other then the bad points below:

Ard 1/3 of the class never turn up
Boring, not much activities
The chalet is infested with MOSQUITOS
BBQ, only a few attend
Some uninvited guests

Well, first i had to thanks Terence for aking the initiative to start this chalet. i had fun too though. First day, i went swimming, haha i swam 5 laps. My god, i was so proud of myself, coz i have not swim for like 1 year?

Then jilly, me and terence watch some R movie. Damn funny though....Second day was more fun, we went swimming, cycling. one word: SHIOK. The cycling was damn fun!!!!!

Then the BBQ, we played polar bear, haha fun sia, like playing reality tv. We drank, we ate, we play. PLus thanks to Terence i was wet, coz we also play water bomb. Haha. It seems that i was drunk, in the end i just knock off. i am not drinking again, the feeling is terrible> Gross

On saturday, i had my first tuition. It was okay, juz a little hiccup here and there. teaching him fraction. Oh god, it was so not fun (being a teacher and all, have to be serious and stern, can u image?), but pay is gd!!! But the boy is kinda cute.mayb i had fetish for young boy, haha!!!

Ohh btw, i am now employed as cashier at Century square basement taiwanese snack shop, opp sakae sushi. The job was easy, pay not gd though. 4 bucks only, but nvm, its near my hse, save the hassle for transporation, plus i got to eat the food there, yummy!!! Come n try, the food is damn nice.

Ohh Jilly, ade, jean n Moo. pai seh arh. But i duno when can go cycling. Shall confirm with u guys again. i miss you guys though. Muz still keep in touch k. feel free to call me n talk. I'm free...

FAC

2006-03-19T21:33:00.000-08:00

Well we lost!! Terribly if u ask me. BUT it make us determind to do better next year. Coz due to commitment and other craps, we were unable to train our cadets well.

I find that Zhiwei n the rest had already done their best. Gd job guys! So does the cadets, they tried their best though. (Or did they not) Its hard to say. We came not well prepared, thats for sure, at least this competition let the cadets gain experience n do better nxt year.

So from now onwards we should rely on ourselves to do all the planning n training, coz there r less n less seniors left in our corps. I believe that with our experience, we can make a BIG difference nxt yr!!!!!!!

BBQ cum FAC

2006-03-19T07:19:00.000-08:00

WAt a hectic Sat n Sun i had....hmmm lets start with Sat first: 4e2 BBQ

BBQ
It was fun FUn FUN!!!!!! I was laughing and eating all the way. Initially when roti n me reach the pit, we were feeling awkward. Coz so long nv contact n stuff, so we were at lost on how to start mingle with my ex-classmates. Haha but luckily, it went well. We started talking abt all kinds of stuff. From braces to kissing, from teacher (Miss E) to chemistry.

Ohh btw, Mr Tan was there tooo. Haha he like sits alone so kelian, so we go n entertain him, ohh he seems to lose weight, which is not a gd thing since hes already soo thin. Iya too bad Patrick is not there< hey his Mr tan No. 1 fan. ahaha

Many ppl started to leave at ard 8 plus, which is such a pity, considering this is a BBQ and stuff. But its okay, we were entertaining ourselve n at the same time waiting for Franco mystery woman. Ohh Franco was bringing a woman over, so we were anticipating.

As we were such a glutton, we finish all the food. CAn u imagine? Incredible!!! So we call Franco to buy food. While waiting for him n his woman, we started a gambling den. Six of us were playing black jack n the rest another game. As usual, i lost again, thanks to Royston. ARGGh

Finally, we saw Franco woman, hmmm not bad, n they look very compatible. So Franco way to go man!!!! I approve of her haha, like my opinion matters...anyway this BBq is definitely very memorable. I got to keep intouch with lots of old pals like Jinn Mein, Weng lum, Simin, Mel, Jaren, Kimpoh, Royston, Mr tan, Malcolm, Xixun......blah blah

lunch with DBS ex-colleagues

2006-03-17T06:07:00.000-08:00

I had so much fun today. Lunch with my ex-colleague. God how i miss those days, working at DBS bank. It started out when i applied for a job at DBS bank, chai chee. last year.

The first three days were horrible. It was hell. My supervisor, Brenda was super fierce. In addtion, the so called manager was a balding 50 plus years old scum. Luckily, not all things turn out the way as i expected.

Brenda turn out to be the world funniest, cheekiest, best boss. I totally adore her, and it make me realise, that she always scold those newbies, but after a while, she'll transform into her old self. Well, about the manager, my impression remain the same; hes despicable!!! (ok maybe i judge him too hrashly, but i dun care. I dislike him, and the feelings are mutual)

Oh, then there was Yang yang. I am closest to her. Who say ppl from china are bad? i disagree totally. Yang yang or rather Kelly, was the world nicest gal, oops no, i should refer to her as a woman (as shes already 28). She had a boyfriend who is currently working in America, and his monthly salary is US $10000. OMG hes every womens' PRINCE CHARMING!!!!!

Actually, i was kind of nervous of today's lunch, coz i have not contact them like for 4 months. But it went well, i was surprise after so long i still manage to blend in with them. I was laughing all the way thru lunch. We were talking about LOTS of things. Especially this guy call James. Hes out main topics of the day. Ok this guy, is also my ex-colleague. And i kind of feel that hes weird.(everyone thinks so too!)

Anyway, he is the new guy who suppose to replace me when i quit, due to study commitment. Guess wat, i'm his mentor, and i am suppose to teach him letters typing. Therefore he ends up sitting on my table, and he is not suppose to answer the phone.(Coz those who call in are the customers.) BUT he kept answering the incoming calls, even when i remind him repeatedly not to do so!! Thanks to him, i had to be even more busy than usual. As u can see, hes not my favourite guy.

ok enough abt James, another of my colleague is Gwen. She very cheeky, and a sense of humour. You can't help but laugh at her jokes. Shes 22 this year, and she getting married soon with her boyfriend who she meet since sec sch. That was so romantic. I wish her all the best in wateva she do, although i dun tink i will b invited to her wedding, coz i only knw her for one month.

Overall i had a great fun having lunch with my ex-colleagues. I hope we can do these more often, but i juz got this feeling that wun b the case. Haiz oh well. Tml i am havig 4e2 BBQ. Oh well hope that it fun!!

2006-03-15T04:25:00.000-08:00

Juz talking to Jilly thru msn.....we were talking abt our pathetic loveless life. HAha sound sad arh.

Bizzzi

2006-03-15T03:31:00.000-08:00

I was very busy these two nights, left me tired but satisfied. Haha must be wondering what i am doing right. Well before ur thoughts go astray, here wat i went thru this pass two days.

I was busy at Roti's hse using her printer to do CPBS stuff. (sjab) It was damn difficult. First i spend close to TWO HRS doing the alignment of the printer. How should i phrase it, as the paper i need to print is not A4 size,it was close to B5, but not exactly B5 either. Therefore i had a hard time adjusting the printer.

Of coz, after my continuous effort and patience, i finally win the battle with the printer. I DID IT!!!! I was so satisfied and happy with myself,
and i finally really realised what Chee Wah went thru. He is really a good role model. CPBS dept, is really hard to manage. I promise myself this time round i am not going to mess up, so i am going to do it right!

So basically i am juz doing some admin stuff this couple of days. I really appreciate roti, u letting me use ur printer to print sjab stuff. I mean u being not a sjab members anymore, Thanks gal, and thanks ur mum too for putting up with me too. Shes really nice!

Now i am looking forward to this sat 4E2 class bbq. Really love to meet up with old frenzs. Ohh 1H03 class chalet too. Really miss my mates!!! Dammit why can't time pass faster>>>>

Boring sunday

2006-03-12T23:25:00.000-08:00

Bored Bored Bored!!!!

Today, I company my younger sis to the popular cum Watson exhibition at Expo today. Damn tired sia. Coz my sis spend like 2 hours browsing all the Chinese books from Hong Kong, China n Taiwan. It was frustrating, as I have no interest in this area.

Oh btw I saw, Benjamin (I think that is his name) Then we chat for a while. That's basically my activity for the day. Damn interesting rite?

I have a gd news to announce! I've got a TUITION JOB!!! I'll be teaching pri 5 kid. Lets hope I dun flunk my job as a teacher. Thank you Shawn and Avril.

To Liyan: Oops I forget to add ur name to the list above. You are, how should i put it, hmmmm always there by my side and take care of me all thru the 2 sems. Ya we should find a day n go out like we plan. So when should it b?

my REsults

2006-03-10T23:25:00.000-08:00

i am pretty satisfied with my results.....
First of all i wana thanks this ppl:

Lim Yangying
Sia Anni
Siejen
Grace
Jean
Nadiah
Adeline
Caroline
Mei yan
Serene

* The names above are not in order.

I wana thanks MOOMOO club for your dedication in trying to commit your time and energy to do the best for every projects! I luv u guys, u guys have been my best frenz for this sem. Siding me up all the way!!! Yea man, so when r we going for sun tanning????

Next is my POM group, u guys are the best, managed to finish the project in one short week. It was one bloody busy week, but we made it! This sem then i get to knw Mei YAn and Serene, they are sure good pals...

Lastly, i muz thank SIA ANNI, she was always there when i am in need of help. She help me in my biz stats for exams. THANK YOU!!!

2006-03-05T06:38:00.000-08:00

Welcum Welcum everyone to my blog...

Facts about me

Name: Cassandra Koh Hwee Chin
Age:17 years old
Studying: TP, hospitality and tourism Management
Hobbies: Read Romance storybk, sleep, shoppING blah blah blah

Well basically i am an easygoing and absent-minded person. i love shopping, but hate it when i'm broke.

I am involved in SJAB activities, Someone once ask me, why do so much for st. john it? why waste time in it, even if the ppl there dun value you n worst you are not even paid a cent. Makes me also wonder myself sometimes, it juz make me love and hate!

To me my frenz are very impt. You can say they are as impt as my family. They are the ones i approach when face with problem, or there to share my laughter. LAstly, i wana thanks ROTI for helping me with my blog!!! (:

2006-03-05T06:31:00.000-08:00

hahahas. hwee chin's blog is up! yay. =)

-roti-